On 4 November 2014 I have lots of things to do.
I have to pitch for new work, do existing work, go swimming, walk the dog, write my book, buy flowers and go to the cemetery.
On 4 November 2014 in a parallel universe I would be doing no work today.
Instead I would with my dad, and we would be celebrating his 70th birthday.
I would give him an iPad Air this year, because I know he would have adored iPads. I would make his cake myself and it would be chocolate. It would have 70 candles on it. Because I would find that amusing. I would organise a surprise for later. We would go to a restaurant for dinner and I would have my brother there with his family and the friends he's made over the years living here.
In a parallel universe we'd then watch a film together as a family. And drink beer and eat chocolates.
In a parallel universe today would be a beautiful, exciting day.
It's still a beautiful day.
The sun is shining and I will, instead, take my beloved dog and my beloved mum and we will visit his grave.
I'll lay flowers on his grave and I will try not to cry.
I'll wish I was the me in the parallel universe.
I love you dad, happy birthday.